Sunday, 9 June 2013

Once

Once by GothicNarcissusHere we are, a careful distance.
Here’s my heart, what’s left of it.
In this town, I used to listen,
Once, once, yeah...

I had hope, blind faith,
Had as much as you could take.

I’m only gonna let you kill me
Once, once, once, yeah.
Once, once, once, yeah.
Once, once, once, yeah.
I’m only gonna let you kill me once.

Ashes burn the morning after.
Only know I’m here to stay.
I was so, I let you see me;
That was dumb, but that’s OK.
Tripping down to your place.
What is love anyway?

I’m only gonna let you kill me
Once, once, once, yeah.
Once, once, once, yeah.
Once, once, once, yeah.
I’m only gonna let you kill me once.

Who or whatever you do,
Don’t let anyone hurt you.
Touch them where it hurts
And watch them leave.

[ Once – Hurts ]

Once is a song by Diana Vickers which hurts covered during the Happiness era. I don’t even know if they released it officially, but despite the original being as dull as it can be, the cover version is so beautiful and inspirational I absolutely wanted it to be part of the series.
When thinking of a visual rendition, I decided to do a fashion-oriented photo, but set it in a domestic location, so it would retain the posh imagery I associate with Hurts music without losing genuineness. The idea was rather sketchy and undefined, and the final image came out a bit unexpected, if compared to the other photos of this project.
It basically represents a moning-after kind of situation in which one of the partners is leaving the other one – but really, who’s leaving and who’s being left? Who’s going to regret the decision and who’s going to turn away towards the light and future the minute the other has left? Thus, the messy bed and the head facing backwards, to the darkness, while the rest of the body is already facing forward to the light. And the black and white and medaillon to give it a glossy magazine kind of feel.
It’s a rather simple, but I do hope it tells its story quite well.

Wednesday, 5 June 2013

Apologize

Apologize by *GothicNarcissusI’m holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground.
I’m hearing what you say,
But I just can’t make a sound.
You tell me that you need me,
Then you go and cut me down – but wait,
You tell me that you’re sorry;
Didn’t think I’d turn around and say –

That it’s too late to apologize,
It’s too late…
I said it’s too late to apologize,
It’s too late to love me.

I’d take another chance,
Take a fall, take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat,
It’s nothing new, yeah, yeah!
I loved you with a fire red,
Now it’s turning blue, and you say
“Sorry” like an angel, heaven let me think was you,
But I’m afraid –

It’s too late to apologize,
It’s too late.
I said it’s too late to apologize,
It’s too late, too late.

It’s too late to apologize,
It’s too late.
I said it’s too late to apologize,
It’s too late to lie.

I’m holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground.

[ Apologize – Within Temptation ]

Lately I’m in the mood for some experiments that stretch beyond mere photography (in a different direcion than photomanipulationsm though). In particular, I’m totally in love with the digital watercolour technique that gave me the idea for the realisation of Hollow, and although I had only seen it applied to writings, I though I could try to make something different out of it, like, for instance, a frame for a photo.
Watercolour is not exactly a new medium for me, but I’m quite unexperienced about the real one. When I was a child I loved drawing. I would literally spend all my free time bent on paper sheets (well, at least when I was not playing with Lego, of course) and although I preferred felt-tips, I would occasionally use also crayons and watercolour. Unfortunately, secondary education was effective in eradicating that part of my creative self, so right now I just can’t hold a pencil anymore, let alone a brush. Nevertheless, this digital watercolour technique can be easily applied with just a mouse or touchpad (it does not even require a tablet), so I’m experimenting a lot with it to make up for my lost manual ability.
This work did barley start as an attempt. I mean, I knew exactly what I wanted to get in the end, but I was not sure I could. Eventually, I did it. Differently from Hollow, I did not want it to look like a photo printed on a glossy magazine page with a watercolour-like title, but rather like a printed photo framed in an actual sheet of watercolour paper with a circular hole in the middle and then scanned. Had I done it with real stuff rather than digitally, I would have painted on the paper with watercolours, then cut out a circle in the middle, pasted the resulting frame on the photo and then drawn the bribed wire with a blue gel pen: this is what this work is supposed to look like.
Of course, there is a specific secret to get a realistic-looking watercolour on photoshop, but I’m going to keep it to myself because... well, I’d spoil the magic otherwise. I just added a watercolour paper texture atop it to make it look even more realistic, which I hope I succeded. As for the photo itself, although I put the usual care in the shooting, including the styling and so on, I shot it to fit the frame rather than the other way round. And yes, that's a true McQueen scarf.
About the concept, I’m totally in love with Within Temptation’s version of this song, even more than OneRepublic’s: I find it very emotional and inspiring, thus when I decided I’d do a visual rendition, I wanted something very special. This experient did fit it, so I decided to complete it and publish it. I have another frame of this kind (related to another Within Temptation cover), but although it’s ready, I still have to take a nice foto to fit.