Sunday 24 March 2019

Confide In Me

Confide In Me by GothicNarcissusI stand in the distance,
I watch from afar.
Should I offer my assistance,
Should it matter who you are?

We all get hurt by love
And we all have our cross to bear,
But in the name of understanding now
Our problems should be shared.

Confide in me, confide in me.

And I can keep a secret
And throw away the key,
But sometimes, to release it
Is to set our children free.

We all get hurt by love
And we all have our cross to bear,
But in the name of understanding now
Our problems should be shared.

Confide in me, confide in me,
Confide in me, confide in me.

Stick or twist, the choice is yours.
Hit or miss, what’s mine is yours.
Stick or twist, the choice is yours.
Hit or miss, what’s mine is yours.

We all get hurt by love
And we all have our cross to bear,
But in the name of understanding now
Our problems should be shared.

Confide in me, confide in me,
Confide in me, confide in me.

[ Confide In Me – Hurts ]

Once upon a time, I took a photo based on Hurts’ cover of Kylie Minogue’s Confide In Me, which… was okay, I guess? I mean, the light was nice, the model too, overall it kind of did work out as a photo… mostly. The truth is, for starters, the focus was not that sharp. And the core of the connection with the song, which goes through Kylie’s hotline-inspired music video, lied mostly in the little phonebook my model and I found at the location we were shooting in… which isn’t easily readable in the photo, so it kinda falls flat. My mixed feelings about this photo led me to downright scrap it at first, while I was cleaning up the Inspiration Hurts folder on deviantArt, but I’m still sort of fond of it, so I don’t know, I put it back into the companion pieces folder and left it at that. And suddenly, Confide In Me needed a new visual representation.

The new idea came up almost at random, while I was listening to the song a few weeks ago. I realised the lynchpin for a strong visual rendition of Confide In Me should be the “keep a secret and throw away the key” line, which I could easily convey through the necklace I always wear. A key in this context would be connected to secrets, especially secret-keeping, confidentiality, thus the trustworthiness the lyrics try to sell to the listener. Placing it over the mouth doubles both as a promise to keep it shout, and as the act of swallowing the key so the secret is safe forever. Also, I’m smiling (which I rarely do in photos) and directly engaging the viewer to further affirm a sense of familiarity and reliability.

The basic idea I wrote down quickly, but it took me a few weeks to take the photo because first I desperately needed a haircut, and then I caught a cold that just wouldn’t leave me alone, so I had to postpone it all until I felt (and looked) better. The reason why I modelled myself for this photo is partly quick availability, partly the fact that I would never lend my necklace to someone else, even if just for a quick shoot. It’s part of me, so it’s only fair that the whole me would be in the photo along with it. Posing was a bit of a challenge more in an abstract way than with the actual shoot, because I have this preconception that I either can’t emote in photos, or look silly, awkward or ugly when I try. I actually freaking love the way I look here and I’m very satisfied with the overall result, so once again, I pushed myself outside of my comfort zone and it was totally worth it.
Now let’s keep our fingers crossed and hope for a cloudy day, so I can take the next Inspiration Hurts photo.

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